Monday, November 9, 2009


I wrote this on Friday but am just now getting a chance to post it...

I'm sitting in TGI Fridays ready to burst into tears. Being here, in a place so like America has made me really homesick. It's easy to forget life before China because I get so caught up in China and my life there. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy living in China, but sitting in a booth, eating American food and drinking Diet Pepsi, watching a mom and daughter and grandmother in the booth in front of me...woo, my heart hurts a little bit.

It's just funny to me that homesickness would hit me when I'm not even in China. I suppose it's because Korea is a little too close to home, it's very westernized. Where I'm staying at in Seoul could be downtown Denver. Reminds me of all the things I left behind. Things I don't think about much now. Things like disappearing into a crowd, or being able to read the signs everywhere I go. Things like real American food and not some other country's version, or the ability to talk about what I believe without feeling nervous or cautious, even something as ridiculous as being able to go on Facebook or Blogger freely without using a proxy.

These little things add up until you're living a life you barely recognize and yet it's life all the same. A new kind of life, one that stretches you and challenges you. A life that makes you really thankful for the small but important things like pictures on a menu so you can order no matter the language or having an organized fellowship to attend and sing worship at or a great pair of walking shoes to keep the blisters at bay. These are the tidbits that make up my life now.

And I love it. I really do. I'm so glad He brought me here. I wouldn't want it any other way. I suppose I just should never visit Korea again! I need somewhere that's a little more backwards...Canada, maybe? :)

P.S. Just so you know, now that I'm back in China, I feel totally fine. I'm telling you, it's the kurse of korea...just kidding.


Ron said...

Hi Jen... we haven't swapped notes in a long time but I just wanted to let you know that I am still out here reading and enjoying life through your eyes. What a wonderful adventure! Keep writing. I am sure I'm not the only "stranger" our here learning and caring!
Ron Woods

Momstheword said...

I'd be worried if you didn't get homesick. I am confidant that you won't let it overwhelm you to the point that you come home. You are the greatest!

Anonymous said...

Jen, I'm sorry I didn't read this sooner. I'm glad you get a little homesick, and I'm glad you get past it. Actually we've been working toward your being able to function far from home ever since you were a little girl. I'm proud of you. I love you.